Alpha's Blind Luna novel Chapter 101

I had taken Gale’s advice up. After finishing my business with her, I headed to the vampire archives. It turned out that there were so many that it took several months just to go all of them. The issue was, none of them had the information I was looking for. I knew from what Vale had actually told me, one of the Alpha Kings ran across experiments done by vampires but there wasn’t even record of that. Somehow though, there was a record of six Vampire kings previous and even single one of his nightly sex routine he had with woman and men of all races.

Finally, after months, I broke down and called Morgan. At the very least he could point me in the right direction if I gave him a little bit of information. He did, which helped narrow my search down a bit and I found what I was looking for but not really. It went into the specifics of how the experiments were done but not that they had ever been successful and definitely not the after effects of one who had gone through them.

Feeling hopeless, I spent some time in one of Morgan’s offshoots to his mafia crew. They were surprisingly relaxed when it came to a werewolf in their midst but it was there that these vampire tendencies started to shine. I accidentally mistook blood for wine and felt myself savoring it instead of being revolted by it. I also started feeling more comfortable on their schedule, not really sleeping much. It was like I was going through puberty again and it was scary without any guidance.

Morgan pulled me aside, saying that his boys were giving him updates and that I was freaking them out. Finally, I spilled most of what was going on. That I had no idea what I was doing and I was well and truly afraid. Afraid that I was turning into a vampire and losing my werewolf side. He listened to me completely unload about the past years of issues without saying anything. Once I was done, he said he knew someone that would be able to help me. That would have the knowledge I was seeking.

That’s how I ended up in the car with Morgan now. We had been mostly quiet, with Morgan thrumming against the steering wheel to music that was in a language I couldn’t identify. Staring out the window, I wondered if this really was the only choice. Morgan did say there was someone who would know about being part vampire but how many could there actually be? Was he just taking us to an ex-vampire researcher? Could I even trust them?

'You need to trust Morgan.' Rydere chimed in.

'Yeah yeah.' I sighed heavily.

“Everything alright?” Morgan asked, looking at me.

My eyes widened. “Sorry. Didn’t realize…I was talking to Rydere.”

Morgan chuckled. “How odd it must be to have another entity in your mind. I mean, I know it’s normal for you guys. But it’s still an odd concept to wrap your head around. Basically two souls connected to one body.”

I cocked my head to the side. “I guess? It’s probably the best way to describe it. Since one soul can actually die leaving the other.”

“Has a wolf taken over in full after their human side died?”

My eyes narrowed for a moment. “Yes and no. Yes because it has happened. But no because you’re probably thinking a wolf staying in human form and living like a human. That doesn’t happen. Usually there is a final shift and then they don’t go back to human.”

Morgan thrummed again on the steering wheel. “It seems I will be proving you wrong in multiple ways todays.”

My eyes widened and I looked back at the empty road ahead of us. It was a country road and the houses spanned miles between each other. Morgan’s words bounced around in my head.

'I mean, there could potentially be a wolf who chooses to stay in human form.' Rydere mused. 'It just would be very odd. They could have also lost their ability to shift.'

'Then wouldn’t they just…'

Rydere tsked. 'Don’t finished that sentence, Hector. Not all of us have a death wish. Especially if a wolf doesn’t have a relationship with their counterpart, why should we as a wolf suffer? Hell, I’m sure Cato has that feeling right now.'

I winced. 'Stop, Rydere. I don’t want to talk about…'

'Auri? Our mate? Our love? You’ve been running all these years! I want our mate! I don’t understand why you ran! Why after all these years of wanting her, loving her, you choose to run away!'

Growling, I balled up my fist. 'Because she was forced. Forced to mate us. To have sex with us. We are no better than those fucking vampires who raped her. We raped her, Rydere! She was forced to be with us! How can you still want to look at her and not feel the same fucking pain I do?'

Rydere growled back. 'She already forgave us. She already talked to us about it. Accepted us! We could feel her love for us. You chose to ignore that and leave her alone after she took care of us through our heat. Left her in a foreign country! Alone! After years of trying to find her!'