Belongs to us novel Chapter 49

Nicolai's pov

I couldn't believe my kitten can do something like that, how can she kill her own mate. Well to be honest I don't care if he lives or die. The thing is does mate bond really doesn't matter to her like she said.

No! I am not ready to believe that she really did that. I know we barely know her true self but I know she can't, I trust her. She knew that Ruby was sucking my cock that day and she didn't even frown when I tried to explain. Why would she behave differently with me when she could have killed me like she did to Arthur?

Or maybe I don't matter to her like her old mate did. Does he mattered that much, if he really did matter then why would she kill him. Was she that much angry that she killed him in her anger.

Will she do the same with us, if we hurt her?

Vincent's pov

Since childhood we fought and struggled to claim our place. Nothing in our life was easy for us to get, from our right to live to our right to throne. Even our mate, I thought when we will find her she will accept us with open arms, no matter how much broken we are but everything crashed down.

Nothing in this immortal life is going right. Why can't she accept us, why does she treat us different than Nicolai. Is she that heartless that she killed her own mate.

Somewhere I don't mind that because that's why we became her mates but that thing is fucking disturbing.

She won't think before leaving us alone and snatching our only source of comfort. She doesn't care about us. I might not get that much affected but lucifer needs her.

I know he won't express or show but he is the only one among us who needs her the most. He needs that love which no one has ever given us. The comfort and place where no one would judge us just because we were born different.

We weren't monsters, people made us that. No one took birth to become a monster. Everyone's judgmental behaviour did it to us while the only thing we need is someone who will accept us without hesitation, just the way we are.

Would Serenity do that or will she hurt us like she did to Arthur?

Lucifer's pov.

Yes, I am a monster and I kill people and I wanted to kill her other mate too so she can be only ours. I can't imagine her loving someone else, only we have the right to do that. No one else, not even her pets.

When she finally entered our life I was happy for the first time in my immortal life. I was scared to go near her thinking I will hurt her but when I found out that she is not that fragile as she looks I was beyond happy. I never wanted her to be like that and I am a proud man because the woman I want is the most feared supernatural in the world.

But I can't get rid of the thought that she killed her previous mate. I am a monster and I have anger issues, I can't control myself until I kill someone and feel their blood on my hands but no matter how bad I am I would never hurt my mate, not physically.

How can she be so heartless to kill her own mate. Did we got the wrong woman as our mate. Why does it feel like destiny has again played a very dirty game with us.

I want to believe that she didn't kill him but what's scaring me the most is she didn't deny it.

Is she also like our mother who won't think twice before killing her mate or child?

Serenity's pov.

When my parents died I was left alone. Vampires were taking over the supernatural world and along with them werewolves jumped in the competition. I was never interested, Carlos had stopped attacking me after I defeated him many times but the loneliness was killing me little by little. I realised that even powers for immortality is nothing without family and someone who will love you.

Love and comfort was all I needed.

Then Arthur came into my life. A gentleman and a very sweet person. A vampire who never hurted a human for bloodthirst and that thing won my heart. We were turned into monsters but we still had humanity left in us.

After gifting me decades of torment destiny finally decided to grace me with Arthur. The only man on whom my venom didn't work and we called it a mate bond. He was the only one I had, the love of my life but Carlos finally found out my weakness and started targetting Arthur. I  was anxious and always on alert thinking that he will hurt him and I have to save him and I did. I fought with everyone so I could protect my love.

But everything crashed down when I saw him sleeping with Eliana, my sister. How could he... I was fighting with the world just for him and he betrayed me, made fun of my love.

I was angry, I hurted him. He broke me so I broke him but did I really kill him?

The answer is NO... I didn't.

Loving him with my life was my choice and cheating on me was his. What would I have got after killing him anyway, only guilt. So i left him alive just to make him realise what he has lost. I don't know why Eliana thinks that Arthur is dead.

That time I lost my faith from mate bond. And by taking advantage of my broken state, Eliana put that curse on me. I couldn't fight back because I had no wish to live, I had nothing to live for.

Years later when hybrids broke that curse I was finally free. But so confused and upset that how can I get three new mates. The first thought that came into my mind was, now Carlos will hurt them. I was surprised that I didn't thought about hating them.

But then slowly I realised that all those years I was living a lie. Arthur was not my mate, he was just a vampire on whom my venom didn't work. Why it didn't work, I don't know but that's the truth. I never felt his touch so calming and soothing like it did with the hybrids. I couldn't sleep not until hybrids held me in their arms. I have never received that kind of pleasure with Arthur the way hybrids gave me.

I never felt that pain before which Nicolai gave me while getting sexually involved with someone else. That day realisation hit me like a cold water on my face. That's what real mate bond means, it was that strong. Emotionally and physically. I was angry on Nicolai, so much angry that I wanted to destroy everything but my mind was engulfed by the things I learnt. I couldn't blame him because I was in denial, I had no right to be angry on him when I myself pushed him away from me.

When Eliana threatened me to snatch them away from me I felt like tearing her in two pieces. The possessiveness was overcrowding all my senses which I have never experienced with Arthur. Yes I was overprotective of him but possessive? Never...

I couldn't look in their eyes after Eliana's declaration. They were asking me so much questions which I didn't know how to answer.

So I just left.

But the sadness in their eyes broke my heart. Specially lucifer, he is broken. Whatever Robert told me was very disturbing. They have suffered so much. Destiny has given them to me and I will accept them with everything they have. I don't care if they are monsters or not, Carlos can't hurt them because the next time I see my cousin, I am killing him.

I have found my real mates after centuries and I will cherish them with all the love I have in me.

I will love them... Equally!