Forever in the Past and Forever in the Future novel Chapter 65

| doze off at some point because | hear a rustling sound. | jump up with a start to see Bronx trying to get out of bed.

 

"Oh no, Buster," | scold, "back in bed."

 

"| gotta pee, Kas,” Bronx whines at me.

 

"Okay, well hold it for just a second," | push the call button for the nurse.

 

| hear a little voice come over the intercom on the wall and ask them to send a male nurse to help. Cause Hell if I'm letting a female nurse help him. The nurse comes in quickly and helps Bronx to the bathroom. When he is back in bed and we are alone again, he reaches his hand out to me.

 

"You look so beautiful right now, Kas. Please come here, Baby, let me breathe you in," his eye looks a little glassy. | am sure the pain medicine is influencing his words, but smile at him anyway.

 

| crawl up on the bed but | don't let him wrap his arms around me yet, "Before that, let me see if | can heal you more. Lean back."

 

He obeys and | put my hands on him. It is much less effort to heal him this time, “ There. They should be able to stop giving you pain medication now."

 

"| already feel it working. Thank you, Kas," he puts his hand on my forearm before I’m able to take my hand off his chest. | feel the familiar sparks where he touches me. | close my eyes and take a deep breath, reminding myself that he and | have a lot to discuss. | look at him in that gorgeous Granny Smith apple green eye of his and do something | never thought | would in my life. | take control of the situation and stand up to my mate, Alpha Regent Bronx Mason.

 

"Bronx, | spent time thinking about what you said. Not gonna lie, Sweetheart, I'm still pissed but here's what | have to say in return, "| take the note card out of my back pocket. "You brought notes?" he asks with a knit brow. 3

 

"I've got a lot to say, so just hear me out. | will give you time to speak too. Don't worry," | say, then look down at my little card.

 

“Bronx, the members of this pack call me Luna and you get upset when you feel like they're disrespectful of the Luna title but when it comes down to it, you're the one who doesn't treat me like a Luna. You don't make feel like an equal partner to lead this pack. You treat me like I'm too fragile to take on responsibilities. That couldn't be further from the truth. Before the fire, | was hitting my stride, feeling like | finally belonged somewhere and that | was valued here. Then it all went south and | didn’t understand why. Everyone turned on me, shunned me, and made me feel isolated and alone. Even you... especially you.” '

 

| pause to keep my composure. | swallow hard before | continue, cause | know the next part is going to sting for both of us.

 

“| know you thought you were doing the right thing, but you took everything away from me without really thinking it through. You could have just spoken to me. We could have spoken to Lady Camille. You coerced people who care about me to treat me badly. You treated me badly and you knew you were doing it. You wanted me to feel that way to ailenate me. You wanted to hurt me, Bronx. How does that make you different from the last guy who was my Alpha?" °

 

He winces at the comparison to Alpha Graham but doesn't try to interrupt.

 

"If this is going to work between us and for the record, | really, really want this to work, then we are equal in all things, Bronx. You don't get to make decisions about me without talking to me. When you have meetings related to the pack or Elder Council business, I'm involved, moving forward. I'll help you make decisions that affect all of us because this is my pack too. I'm by your side every time as the Luna Regent of Blood River...not to mention a goddess. I'm not sure how that fits in the title, but we can figure it out for the business cards. If you think it is something | won't understand, then teach me. Educate me, Bronx. | want to know all of it. The good and the bad." ’

 

| give him a questioning look.

 

"Please continue, Kas," he says, giving me a nod of understanding that he deserved my words and was willing to listen.

 

“I've already talked to James and Marco. They're going to start training me regularly. Not just so | can defend myself but enough so | can start eventually train with the pack. I’m not asking your permission here, I’m telling you. Lex is a warrior. It is not fair to her to hold her back from being who she truly is. | love her so much and what happened the other day shows how much she’s struggling too. She needs an outlet to channel her energy just like any other wolf. Besides, I'm a hypocrite if, as their leader, | expect the pack to train but | don't.” ”

 

| finally let him take my hand. He pulls it to his face and kisses my palm before placing it on the side of his stubbly face. | feel my resolve soften, but | take another deep breath and continue.

 

“And don't think | forgot about your offer to help me start a bakery. | want a way to have my own income. | don't want to have to ask your permission every time | want to buy something for myself or feel like I'm being a drain on the pack. | want to be able to set an example for other pack members. Show them anyone can do it and everyone should try.