I Am The Luna (Moonlight Muse) novel Chapter 21

SEBASTIAN.

It’s pretty late in the evening when I finally head home.

I had gone to Valerie’s apartment again, but there was nothing more to find other than what the squad had already learned. I took her phone from them, in hopes she’d have Zaia’s new number in there, but there is nothing.

I wonder if she has another phone and ask the team to bring me all her devices, but there is no sign of a second phone. I’m sure they stayed in contact, but even Jai is not sure on how. Valerie didn’t tell him much more than what he already knew.

Checking her emails also doesn't bring anything, but there are emails of a conversation with a doctor regarding the poison and Zaia’s blood, something I d******d copies of.

I unlock the front door to the mansion, and step inside, pulling open the buttons of my shirt, as I lean against the door and stare down the hall.

The memory of Zaia running down this hall in a rush, looking graceful and sexy all at once as she flings her arms around my neck, kisses me and helps me out of my jacket, returns with a vengeance.

Zaia is everything, beautiful, strong, confident, pure and sexy.

I miss her… miss her touch; her smile… the taste of her…

An image of her naked fills my mind, and I close my eyes.

Not now… I groan internally.

It’s been over four months since I’ve had sex… since she left.

The dreams only make it harder and masturbating to her memories is nowhere near the real thing.

I did this… I admit I deserve this.

Pushing myself away from the wall, I head upstairs, passing our old bedroom. I pause and stare at the door.

I can’t bring myself to go in there…

Is there any remnant of her scent left behind?

Opening the door, I’m instantly I’m hit with a powerful wave of nostalgia. Making me unable to enter.

“Well, look who decided to return.” Dad’s crisp voice makes me turn to him.

I frown slightly and tilt my head.

“I’ve been busy with what’s been going on,” I say quietly.

I don’t want to argue with him. Closing the door, I move past him when he calls me.

“Sebastian.”

I don’t respond, waiting for him to continue.

“This pack is going to the dogs. Fix it or give up your title.”

I frown. He’s forgetting I’m the one who made this pack better.

“I think you got used to the level that I raised this pack to. We’re only returning to how it was when you were Alpha.” I reply harshly.

Not waiting for a reply, I walk away.

“Sebastian!”

I don’t have time for his crap.

“Do not turn your back on me, Sebastian.” He warns menacingly.

“No… but I am the Alpha now, and you better not disrespect me.” I snarl, my eyes flashing as I turn and glare at him.

“I made you Alpha.” He hisses.

“You made me nothing! A fool can be given the title of a king, and unless he proves he is worthy to be called king, he will forever remain a fool. I’m acknowledged as the Alpha for what I have achieved. As for the shit I’ve messed up, I know what I’m doing, and I don’t need to answer to you or anyone.” I growl, trying to calm the rising storm within me.

Only Zaia. Because she’s the one I wronged.

Our eyes meet, both of us raging with anger and before this gets out of hand, I turn and storm down the hall, having had enough of his crap.

I enter the guest room where I’ve been staying and head straight to the bathroom and pull open the cabinet. Grabbing the pill bottle, I unscrew it and pour some pills into my hands before putting the bottle back.

I’ll have these checked.

Hearing a knock on the bedroom door, I quickly slip the pills into my pocket before I go to answer it.

I will fix this, Zaia, I promise.

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A week has passed since that day, and things are still extremely tense at home.

The results of the pills came back positive. Each one contained a high level of Ashbane.

The results, combined with the tension, brought me to the decision that I will leave the mansion and move elsewhere.

I now stare up at the gates to the entrance of the Whispering Mountain Pack. After not being able to reach either Atticus or Zaia via phone or email, I decided to come here in person.

I told no one of my visit, save Jai, not wanting it to somehow get to the person watching me and also not knowing who I can trust.

I sigh, leaning against my car as I wait for Atticus. The guard is watching me like a hawk. He has called Atticus and surprisingly Atticus has agreed to come meet me.

I chose to go to the eastern side of his pack, the private property is entirely blocked off, and no one can enter but it’s easier for me to reach Atticus on this side rather than try to enter the pack and be apprehended by security. This way I’m not on his pack territory, just the borders.

Several more minutes pass when I hear the sound of footsteps and the door opens and Atticus steps out.

“Give us some time alone,” he murmurs to his guard.

The man bows before walking away and Atticus turns his gaze on me.

“Well, well, well… look what we have here? I’m appalled at your brazen behaviour, Sebastian King. When I specifically told you, you aren’t allowed anywhere near my pack, yet you show up at my door...” his voice is sharp, his eyes ice-cold.

“I came alone and I’m here to talk, not to argue.” I reply, my eyes flickering from my wolves to my own as I try to control my emotions.

“And that is the only reason you are alive. I don’t need Zaia getting upset with your presence,” he says, his voice lower.

“I want to talk to her, it's why I’m here,” I reply as I cross my arms.

He frowns slightly and sighs heavily.