I Am The Luna (Moonlight Muse) novel Chapter 98

20. A Step Towards Healing or I Am The Luna Chapter 98 By Moonlight Muse

JAI.

I can feel someone running their fingers through my hair, and it feels pleasant and soothing. I know exactly who it is and I’m enjoying it.

She sighs softly, sounding troubled, but her hand doesn’t stop combing through my hair. Mmm, how did I get lucky to have such a treat from her?

“You’re awake,” she says quietly.

“Barely.” I croak out, and that’s when the pain in my body registers and I groan. “Damn, I prefer focusing on your touch,” I grunt.

My entire body feels like I was hit by a truck. Her hand stops moving, and to my disappointment, she removes it.

Way to go Jai.

I crack open my eyes and look over at her. She’s seated in an armchair beside my bed. The curtains are drawn, but I can tell it’s night.

Her eyes are red, and there are blood stains on her hair and clothes.

What the…

Everything rushes back and my heart thunders as I realise what happened. I look around the room once again, reassuring myself that I am indeed back home. I don’t remember what happened…

The poisonous gas… Zaia in wolf form… the fight…

“Are the others ok?” I ask. I have no recollection of how we got out of there. “Yes, they are. You all are.” She says softly. “You’re pretty beat up, yet you’re thinking of the others?”

Did I see a faint smile?

I’m not sure, as she masks it pretty fast.

“Well, I am the Beta, so I need to make sure my Alpha is safe before that Justin takes the damn job from me and wins damn brownie points.”

She cocks a brow. “Really? Is that all you can think of?” “Well, of course, I’ll be out of job soon, but then again, I guess I’ll just annoy you instead.”

“You can do that for the next few days since you are on bed rest.”

“Says who?” I say as I try to sit up.

Fuck, it hurts!

“Doctor’s orders.” She says firmly, giving me that no-nonsense brisk look. All she needs is her white coat and her hair pulled back, and she’ll be back to Doctor Scott mode. This woman sure can be scary.

I still smirk because what is life if I don’t have a little fun teasing the woman I love?

“Oh yeah? So… this doctor… does she come in a sexy little outfit and-” One scathing glare shuts me up and I chuckle.

“Ok ok, point taken… so…I’m presuming you fixed me up.”

I glance down. I’m in some clean pants and my torso is wrapped up. “Yes, it wasn’t safe to take you to a hospital, so I had no other choice.” She responds, fussing with the bandage.

“I see… Well thanks…”

Our eyes meet and we fall silent, the dim glow of the lamp illuminating her face.

She looks healthier since she first woke up. Her hair is glowing too, but she’s still thin and although she has gained a little weight, she still needs to build it up a little more.

Why does she look… Sad.

“Hey…” I say as I reach over, trying not to groan as pain spasms through me. I place my hand on hers, rubbing her knuckles gently with my thumb. ” What’s up?”

She looks up at me and smiles, but it does nothing to mask the sadness in her eyes. “I’m ok… I just want you to get better.”

“Worried about me?” I tease.

Why do I feel there’s more to it?

She looks down and nods. “Obviously.”

She says, but it’s lacking her usual spunk.

“Val, what are you not telling me? Something is wrong. I know you better than that.”

She’s good at hiding her emotions. I’ve always been able to read her. She always acted like a no-nonsense lass, but she is pretty sensitive.

She sighs and looks at me. “Gerard got away an hour or so ago. Zaia and Sebastian have gone to see if they can find any clues.”

“What?” I say sharply, sitting up, ” Fuck.” I hiss in pain. “How is that even fucking possible?”

She looks at me and shakes her head. ” Who knows…”

“I better go see if I can help-”

She stops me from trying to get up and gently pushes me back onto the bed. Firmly forcing me to lie down and I have no strength to fight her.

She’s way stronger than she looks.

“Look Jai, just rest. The best you can do is get better quickly. Zaia is going to need us both.”

“Yeah… I know that.” I sigh in defeat.

This is not good…

She stands up, avoiding my eyes, and brushes her hair back.

She’s acting weird…

“I’ll go get you something to eat and drink. And then give you some medication for the pain.”

She turns away, and I grab hold of her wrist.

“Val…”

She looks down at me, her eyes sparkling with emotions. “I forgive you, Jai… forgive you for what you did… even if I can’t completely forget it.” She whispers.

My heart skips a beat, and I really don’t care if I’m injured. I pull her towards me, and she stumbles back, ending up on the bed, bumping into my chest.

She gasps but I barely register the pain as I wrap my arms around her tightly, not allowing her to get up, my heart racing.

“I swear Val… I don’t remember it, I only remember thinking it’s you… I was drunk or high-fuck, I don’t know. All I know is I thought it was you until I woke up and realised it wasn’t… It doesn’t make it right, but I just want you to know there was no woman who enticed me or tempted me. I fucking thought it was us.”

I hug her from behind, burving my head in her shoulder.

I love her. I always have, and I have no idea why I fucked up or how. It’s all a fucking haze, and I truly didn’t realise it was her, but I had been unable to keep it from her. There’s no