I Will Escape novel Chapter 53

After all that has happened this morning I have no idea on what to say anymore. Just for picking my own clothes out he acts like a total dick. 

Jazz tries to comfort me, “Sabrina just try not to let it get to you, he is who he is.” We still need his trust. I understand that Jazz its just I hate acting like his little puppet it kills me. Now I’m upstairs with him it’s going to be us just constantly together. 

As he ask me how my food tastes, I can’t even look at him . I’m just staring down looking at my food when speaking to him. I say “its fine.” He gets so angry he slams his fist down on the table causing me to jump. He then says Sabrina don’t you dare disrespect me when I speak to you. You look at me and respond. I then look up at him with tears in my eyes, “the food is good.”

 “See was that so fucking hard for you?”

“I didn’t realize that was a question intended for me to answer.”

 He gets up throwing his chair walks over to me and grabs me by my hair. 

I scream, “Please Alpha I’m sorry I didn’t mean any disrespect.” He let’s go of my hair and I fall back in my chair. Looking over I see Allison with a bruised up face. I try looking down to keep any attention off of her. 

The Beta sighs, “It is a beautiful day out!” 

“Are we still going to go for a run today?” 

The Alpha looks over at me , “Sabrina do you think you deserve to learn how to shift and go for a run today?” 

 I then look up to the Alpha not sure how to answer worried that it doesn’t matter. Whatever I do it will still make him angry. 

I respond, “Whatever ever you find fit Alpha.”

I’m so nervous on his reaction that I prepare myself that I might be getting beat. As I put my hands in my lap I eagerly wait for his response.  “You know what why the hell not.”

“Let’s get some of this energy out!” he smiles and looks at me. 

I look over to Allison noticing her fake smile of excitement wondering how she got in this predicament. Did they kill her family too? You can tell that she didn’t willingly choose to be here. The bruises on her face confirm that and I can’t even speak freely and openly to her about it. 

Not being able to trust her not to run and tell someone what we talk about. My whole plan would be blown to bits. “Jazz do you think we can help her too?” Sabrina stop! “We need to worry about ourselves.” It’s not fair that we can’t help those around us, Jazz responds. Sabrina you don’t know who actually really needs our help and who is pretending. That’s why we have to be careful for our safety.

The Alpha calls my name out! “Sabrina.”

I look at him, yes Alpha, he then asks me “are you ready to learn how to shift?”

I mumbled  “only if you are ready to teach me I’m ready to learn.”

 The Alpha says, “alright let’s go outside.”

I follow him outside as the Beta and Allison get up to follow behind us. When he opens the doors to the outside I automatically smell freedom. How much I want to run from him but now he will catch me. The Alpha says my name, I turned towards him he then says so to shift into your wolf you need to really concentrate. I want you to focus on your wolf nothing else.

As I tried not to shift for the simple fact that I already know how to shift. I let Jazz know also make sure that she does not shift until I am ready for her to. I understand we can’t just shift right away he will know that something is up. This is part of our plan we don’t need his help to do a damn thing.

 I close my eyes to put on a show for the Alpha.   I pretend that I am concentrating only on shifting into my wolf. All I can think about is how to escape him and how much I want to run never looking back. I’m having so much trouble trying to resist the fact of getting away from him. 

Feeling the wind blow through my hair is just amazing. Breathing in the fresh air filling my lungs feels like I’m alive again.

“Sabrina fucking snap out of it.”

 I am trying to concentrate. I apologized, sorry Alpha I’m trying my best. You have to remember I’ve never done this before. Please just give me a chance here. 

“You don’t know how to do anything right Sabrina!” he shouted at me. 

  I look at him irritated with tears in my eyes. I am trying Alpha please don’t get upset with me. He starts yelling look at me , “concentrate on your fucking wolf Sabrina.” 

“There’s no reason that you can’t shift into your wolf.” Stop with all the damn excuses.”

I start crying Alpha why do you have to be so mean. He looks at me his eyes go to red you haven’t even seen me mad yet Sabrina. Do you want me to show you mean?” he exploded.

  “I’m sorry please just give me one more chance.” I know I almost have it. 

The Alpha grabs me by my wrist. We are done here. I try to pull my wrist away pleading “Alpha please your hurting me.” He slaps across my face we are done here you dumb bitch, don’t you fucking disrespect me.” I say Alpha please don’t get mad I’m just having trouble doing it.

 He stops and turns around grabs my face because you’re a fucking moron. He demands me to get back in the house, once inside he pushes me to the ground. I get up attempting to run from him. 

He yells “you better stop Sabrina.” I will make you pay the consequences having me fucking chase after you. 

I stop and turn around Alpha “you don’t want to do this I said I was sorry.” 

“Get up to the bedroom now. ”I can’t speak I just quickly do what he wants, I’m dreading getting back to the bedroom.