Love Aint Always Pretty novel Chapter 69

Drunk In Love

- not intoxicated by liquor or any sort of spiked beverage; she is lit up with attraction, affinity and amor for her man. It might seem like she is saying that when she gets a little tipsy, her inhibitions fall away. But it's really her man who gets her hot, bothered and aroused.

69

"Work that thing baby cakes." Kurt encourages me.

I turned around to face Kurt again and even though it was evident on his face that he dislikes me dancing on him, I'm glad he's still helping me with this. I know it's lame for me to do this to make Nick feel jealous but when he said he still loves me, it made me want to do some revenge on him for leaving me out of the blue, for not being here for me, for taking the money and just left without letting me know why. I want him to see that I can flirt with any guy I want now that he's out of my life and he's not the only guy I can do things like the way we used to do.

Kurt and I finally sat back to our table and I was sweating. My heart is still beating fast, the alcohol is slowly fading away but I know it's still there. I ordered another glass and so did Kurt. Our table was a bit on the opposite to Nick's table, his hand was holding a glass of alcohol and all of a sudden that woman pulled Nick up from the couch. He stands voluntarily while he glances at me before she leads him to the dance floor. He's getting his revenge. He's doing this on purpose.

I hate you Nick.

I really fucking hate you.

"Savannah you don't want to see this." Kurt says to me.

"Oh I want to. I want to see it Kurt." I tell him.

"No. Lets go."

I shake my head. "No. I wanna prove to him that I've moved on. I want him to realize what he lost."

"Ugh, that bitch is so ugly. Look at that dress." Kurt commented.

I smiled.

The woman was dancing too close to Nick while his hands were clinging into her waist. They were face to face and their lips were too close to each other that they're almost about to kiss. Nick wasn't looking at us but his eyes were glued to that woman. She's smiling and he's smiling.

Who is she?

Why is Nick looking at her like that?

He used to look at me like that.

I sigh inwardly.

I bent my head down and wiped my tear. No. He can't see me like this. He can't see me crying.

"I have a plan." Kurt whispers to me.

I pulled my head up to him.

"Stop fucking crying girl." Kurt spit while he thumbs away my tears.

"What's your plan?" I asked.

He smirked. "It's so gonna work. But we'll just have to wait until they sit back down on the couch."

I nod.

"I'm so sure Nick will get fucking jealous." Kurt smirked.

"What is it?" I asked.

Kurt moved closer to me and whispered something to my ear. My eyes widened as soon as I heard what he was planning on doing and I quickly turned to face Kurt again.

"No way." I say.

He smirks. "Well we're already doing it, let's do it all."

I laughed.

"Are you sure you can do that?" I asked him.

He nods doubtfully. "I don't know but I'll try to be man enough for you."

I laughed again and just rested my head on Kurt's shoulder until I froze on my seat when I saw Nick and that woman kissing on the dance floor. My tears quickly gathered behind my eyelids but I'm trying not to make it fall on my cheeks. Kurt quickly stood up and spin my chair around so I could face my back to the horrific view.

"Don't watch it. Shit. Fuck that man. If he's not only handsome and hot I would've hit him straight on the balls." Kurt says to me as he wipes my tears.

"Kurt it hurts so much. Why does it still hurt?" I sobbed.

Kurt looked behind my shoulder.

"Sssh, don't cry. He's staring. He's doing this on purpose." Kurt says to me.

He moved closer to my face that made him look like he's kissing me. Kurt's lips weren't even pressed against my lips, but my tears are still falling.

"Baby, I swear to god I'll make him feel he lost you." Kurt says.

Kurt pulled himself away and wiped my tears. "Let's play fire with fire."

I smirked.

"Ready for your revenge?" He asked.

I nod.

"Good. Now drink up. We need to be tipsy to do it to make it look like it's fucking real." Kurt handed me a shot of tequila.

I grabbed it and drank it all in one shot together with Kurt then followed by the other shot that we both drank in unison again then the third one. I grimaced as I groaned under my throat. It's burning inside my body. It's like hell inside my stomach. Kurt looks at me.

"Let's dance." I say.

Kurt and I headed back to the dance floor while Nick and that bitch is still there. I chose the spot where Nick could see us. I faced Kurt and we were starting to dance like we were an actual couple. Kurt pulled me close to his body as I grind on him. Kurt moved close to my ears.

"It's working." Kurt says.

"The alcohol is also starting." I say.

Kurt laughs.

We danced again sexily as if we were the only ones in here and I just raised my hands to the ceiling as I feel the alcohol starting to make me tipsy. Even though my vision was blurry, I can still stand. Kurt held my hand and pulled me away from the crowd all of a sudden. I looked at Nick over my shoulder, and he's locking his eyes at me as we walk away.

Kurt and I walked to the dark hallway where I could see the other couples making out too. Shit, I didn't know such hallway exist in these kinds of bars. It's like a public make out session in the dark. Holy crap, one on the end of the hallway is giving head to a man. Kurt quickly pinned me against the wall while his hands were holding against the cold marble as he leans forward to me. Kurt's eyes were looking at my eyes intently and I look up at him.

"Ready to make out with a gay?" Kurt asked.

I smirked. "Yes. No. Maybe."

Kurt laughs.

"Don't worry baby cakes, I'll make you feel good. A kiss won't kill you." Kurt says.

My eyes moved to my peripheral view and I see Nick slinking in the corner end of the hallway. It's really working. "He's here." I say.

"Perfect, I told you it'll work." Kurt says

I smiled.

"Now let's give him a good show." He blurted before landing his lips on mine.

Kurt held my arms up above my head, holding my wrist against the wall as I feel Kurt's kiss getting deeper. His tongue now on my tongue. I know he's gay but I feel the burning sensation inside my body. Holy Christ, Kurt is so good at french kissing. Plus, I haven't had sex for almost a year now and the alcohol is making me feel even more horny.

"Oh god Kurt." I moaned on his mouth.

"I think the alcohol is getting to me too Savannah." He says.

"Me too." I say in return.

"Fuck. I know I'm super gay but why are you making me horny."

I laughed but he cut me off cos he kissed me again, wasting no seconds, and this time his hands were moving down to my body. Slowly running over my curves as he squeezed my hips. But then Kurt quickly pulled himself away and rested his forehead on mine.

"Baby cakes I think that's enough. Is he still there?" Kurt asked breathlessly.

I shake my head. "I can't find him. Ugh, I feel sick. My world is spinning."

"Let me take you home."

"No. No. You say you were eyeing on that guy from across our table. Stay, I'll go grab a taxi."

"Savannah."

I smiled. "Kurt, you've helped enough. And if you and I go back to the hotel together under this condition, we might end up fucking each other."

He laughs. "No offense but ew. Gross. I'm so much better on riding a dick than you."

I bursted into laughter then I kissed his cheek. "I'll go now. I don't want to watch Nick and that woman anymore."

He kissed my cheek right back. "Please be careful on your way back home. Let me walk you out."

I nod.

I was struggling on keeping my vision straight cos everything was starting to get blurrier. I couldn't see faces anymore and I feel like throwing up again but I don't want to. When Kurt finally walked me out of the bar, I see a blurry vision of Nick walking towards us. I don't know if it was really him but the blurry man stands like Nick or maybe I'm just hallucinating.

"What the fuck did you do to her? Did you drug her? She's fucking drunk. Look at Savannah!" The blurry man speaks to Kurt with so much anger in his voice.

"I'm not drunk." I slurred.

"So? Why the fuck do you care?" Kurt answers him back.

"I'll drive her home." This blurry man pulled my arm.

"Let go of me blurry man." I slurred.

"Savannah you can't handle yourself anymore. Look at you." The blurry man talks to me.

"Dude please, let me take her home. It's the least thing I could do to her after what I've done." The blurry man talks.

I hear Kurt groaning. "If she's not at the hotel room, you're going to be on the WANTED list tomorrow morning!"

"Thank you." The blurry man says.

"You're welcome." I slurred.

"Here's the hotel card. Please take good care of her for me." Kurt talks.

The blurry man started taking me away and I was letting him hold me until I feel myself being placed inside a car. I didn't want to talk anymore cos if I talk more, I'll probably vomit. I feel someone putting a seatbelt on me and the car starts moving. The vision outside the window is blurry too and it's more blurry cos of the car's movement. Finally, after a while I feel it stopping and the door next to me was opening wide.

"Can you walk?" The blurry man asked.

I nod.

He helps me stand and we started walking inside the hotel. We rode elevator and finally found myself entering a room.

"Who are you? Are you gonna rape me? Where are you taking me? What are you gonna do to me?" I asked drunkly.

"Savannah it's me. I'm not gonna hurt you." A voice says.

It sounded like Nick.

"You know the first time I was toooooootally wasted, I was in WSU. I-I-I was... in a frat party. I was soooo fucking drunk that night." I slurred my words as I stumbled on my own feet but this man helping me manages to help me stand.

"But!" I snapped. "My knight and shining armor helped me. He took good care of me. He let me sleep in his room." I smiled to the thought of it.

I feel myself being put down on the bed. I see a sight of a man sitting down beside me while he covers my body with the blanket so I sat back up. He looks at me.

"So you share a room with that man?" He asked me.

I nod. "Yeaaaah. That gay is so messy sometimes. I even have to hurry up in dressing up." I hiccuped.

"Gay?"

I nod. "Duh? That dude who was with me at the pub was fucking gay." I laughed.

"It was funny cos I had to use him to make my ex jealous. He planned everything to get my revenge. It was super fun. Child's play I know." I laughed again as I feel my heart aching.

All of a sudden warm tears were already falling on my cheeks. "Do you know what hurts the most?" I asked him.

There was silence in the room for a long while.

"What?" He asked.

"It's when... You've given e-ve-ry-thing to that fucked up man cos you're so fucking in love. You accept him and his ugly past. You fucking fight for him. But then he fucking leaves you with no explanation! He fucking leaves out of the blue!" I laughed humorlessly even though my heart was aching so bad while more tears were gathering behind my lids.

"He shows up again after seven months and tells you he wants to end it. Does he even know how that would feel?" I added.

I exhale heavily.

"I always ask myself where the fuck did I went wrong to make him leave me? Why did he accept the money? Why did he chose it instead of me. You know, you can't just come into someone's life, make them feel special and then leave." I cried.

The blurry man exhales. "Go to sleep Savannah." He says.

I shake my head. "I don't want to."

"Why?" He asked.

"Cos even in my dreams I see him. Even in my dreams he's hurting me. Even in my dreams I picture him leaving me."

The blurry man held the back of my neck and planted a kiss on my forehead.

"I had a reasonable explanation why I did the things I caused you. I'm sorry." He says to me.

I ignore what he said and just laid down on the bed. I feel him covering my body and I turned my back to him.

"If ever you come across a guy named Nicholas Stanley Colin Wilde, tell him he's a big fucking jerk." I spit.

He laughs. "I will tell him if I see him."

"And..." I trailed off.

I took a pause.

"And tell him that I still love him." I added.

He exhales. "I will tell him."

Then I fell asleep.

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