The Female Alpha’s Sanctuary novel Chapter 203

Chapter 203
I sigh, silently drawing circles on his bare arm. I tried my best not to freeze up. Since Isaac, I hadn’t opened up about the past. The only one who I verbally talked to was only ever Isaac. Noah just found out from the blood bond. Tracing invisible patterns on his arms somewhat distracted me from the attack so very close to holding me down. I needed to get through this. I needed to get this out.
Had Raizel wanted to learn about my past, all he had to do was look in my mind.
Any formed bonds would allow this. Blood bond, mate bond- but out of respect for me, he never intruded on my memories. Like how I never intruded on his. He took what I gave him and I found myself loving him more for that.
“She was always the favorite. The better daughter, the better Luna candidate. And that was fine. It was reality. Her reality was simply that. Mine was to be the quiet daughter who plays in the dirt with her garden. The one people often forget was there to begin with. Which was, again, fine. Because everyone had a role to play and I was perfectly content with mine. And then one day, on my nineteenth birthday, I found him. It was always odd, but years after the moment I should’ve known, I realized Landon was my mate.”
Flashes of that day ran through my mind.
“Landon and Hestia were together. In fact, they were engaged already. To cut it short, I was temporarily kicked out. Landon and my father both thought it’d be best to keep me away until after they’ve bonded. Supposedly my connection with Landon would’ve lessened with the distance. Hestia said she loved him and just couldnt live without him. I wasn’t Luna material, they told me. I wasn’t fit to be one. And so, they sent me away. They sent me away because I was a burden to their precious daughter’s future.”
I swallow as my chest tightens up.
“They sent me away to Duskfall.”
To his credit, Raizel doesn’t flinch. He’s quiet and the only thing that actively tells me he’s listening is that the way he caresses me softens when things get rougher in my story.
“They sent me to Duskfall for an indefinite amount of time. But Goddess, I was so naive.”
I shake my head, feeling the all too familiar sting of remembering how they’d purposely sent me to a pack planned for its demise.
“I was so dam n naive, waiting and hoping that things might change. That they’d call me back, realizing their mistake and that my mate would want me. I was so hopeful in the beginning, but then a week passed. Then two. Then a month. Then two months. While I was there, I made a life for myself. A life I never thought I’d have. I met people who were so genuinely kind and caring people who remembered my name after the first meeting.”
I smile to myself as I recalled my first meeting with Alpha Thompson.
The way that the brutish man looked so intimidating only to be one of the most kindest men I’ve ever met. Then his wife and their little son, Jason.
“I met a kind old man. Bentley Everdale. He had his own garden, offering me to work with him but it wasnt possible if I hadn’t met her.”
I suc k in a strangled breath,
“Lila. A little girl who’d been hurt for far too long. She was the most precious little thing. So precious my wolf considered her our own. As much as I loved my life there, I knew I would eventually be called back. They didn’t make it a quick and simple bonding. No, they mated over and over and each
time I felt it. Each time I felt the pain until i would pass out. The last was the worst one I ever had. I passed out for two whole days. My body was growing weaker as my wolf was. I didn’t know how much more I could take. Then Bentley told me he spoke to Alpha Thompson, telling me that he knew. of my situation. They offered me a place.”
I smile despite the tears threatening to spill over my eyes,
“They offered me a place with them. They offered me a home.”
Laughing softly to myself, I was glad he wasn’t facing me. I knew if I saw those pretty grays looking at me I would break. All the walls I spent years fortifying would break with one look.
“But then the rogues. The da m n rogues took everything from me. The Alpha, his wife, their son, the pack. That day I killed a man. That day, I lost my innocence. They took my happiness. They took Bentley…they just took it. They took my home.”
I bit into my lip as I felt a sob nearly rip from my throat but I forced it down.
No.
I will be strong.
I will not break.
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“They knew. My parents. Hestia. Landon. They knew there’d be an attack at Duskfall. Apparently Xeneron has something he wants in Nightwake. He’d sent warnings about an attack months prior. I guess the rogue thought the treaty with Duskfall meant something to the Walker’s. That they would respond if an ally was threatened. But no. They ignored them, but they sent me there too. So they did what they promised. They took them. Took Duskfall and burned it to the ground.”