Love Aint Always Pretty novel Chapter 59

Philophobia

- the fear of falling in love or emotional attachment

59

"Are you really sure about it?" I asked.

I feel Nick rubbing his thumb in circles around my shoulder as we lay down on my bed inside my room. Tracy went out to grab dinner and I was left here with a naked Nick Wilde on top of my bed.

"Does Cameron know about it?" He asked me back.

I nod. "Yeah. I told him you could possibly be going."

"What? But you already know my answer to that right? I already told you I'm not gonna go with you."

I sigh. "I know. I was saying that hoping you'd change your mind. But where are you spending it then?"

"Alec's."

My lips starts to frown and I'm sure he noticed it cos he's sighing.

"Savannah, your brother hates me." He says out all of a sudden. "Me and him couldn't be in one house for that long."

I bite my lower lip.

"I missed thanksgiving dinner with my family cos I spent it with you cos you told me so. Now you can't spend Christmas with me? And the holiday break is weeks long. I'm going to miss you. You're so unfair Nick." I say.

He kissed my temple. "We're not even dating remember? Why would you want me to meet your parents?"

I quickly pulled myself away from him abruptly and I just erupted by what he said cos it was true, we weren't together so what's the use of it.

"You know what, you're right." I spit.

"Savannah I didn't mean it that way." He pulled himself up and sat down too.

"Why am I forcing and begging you to spend the Christmas break with me at my home when you're not even my boyfriend. Good catch Nick. Thanks." I say angrily.

I slipped myself off the bed and started grabbing my clothes. "Savannah." He calls out.

I started putting back my underwear and bra on then my shorts then my shirt and then pulled my hair into a bun and just completely ignoring him.

"Savannah come on." He pulls my hand.

I stared at him for a while. "I didn't mean it that way." He says.

"I don't think I'm worthy to be introduced to your parents. You know how fucked up my past was and how complicated this thing that we have. I can't face them. I ain't worthy." He adds

"Let's not make this a big deal. I wanna spend my Christmas with you but you don't want to spend your Christmas with me, I get it. It's not that important to you anyways. It's okay." I pulled my hand away from him.

"Savannah."

I shake my head. "Don't say anything."

•••••

The following afternoon, all of my classes were done for the day. Everyone looked so excited to go home. Christmas was just around the corner, it was already the third week of December and tomorrow was the start of Christmas break but I wasn't really excited for the break. I haven't really thought about going back home even though I already promised my mom and dad that I would be there. I'm surely going to miss Nick during the holidays and how he's not going with me cos he doesn't want to. It's going to be a long break and I won't be seeing him for weeks. It's gonna kill me.

I would already feel the wind changing as it hits my skin day by day. The crisp weather was making me shiver every morning and the thick snow was starting to build up on the streets and corners of WSU. I have been wearing thick woolen layers jackets and sweaters.

"Savannah!!"

I turn around and saw Tracy rushing towards me. "I'm so going to miss you this Christmas break." She hugs me.

I hugged her back. "I'm going to miss you too Tracy."

We pulled ourselves away from each other and I could see Tracy's pinkish tip of the nose and cheeks. "And I'm sure you're going to miss Nick." She nudges.

I smiled sheepishly.

Both of us started walking together back to the dorm, arm in arm. "I haven't packed my clothes yet. Have you?" She asked me.

I shake my head. "Not yet." Because I don't want to go home. "I don't want to leave either."

"Owww you don't want to leave cos of Nick huh?" She teases again.

"Tracy." I shied.

She chuckles. "Im sure he feels the same as well. He'll be on his own cos I'm spending my Christmas at Clyde's so he'll be alone this Christmas. You won't be there to warm him up."

"Oh my god Tracy. You've gotta stop this now." I chuckle softly.

She laughs.

"So you mean to say you're not spending Christmas with Nick?" I asked.

She shakes her head. "I told him to go with me but he didn't want to. But I'm going back to see him in New Year's."

I nod. All of a sudden she rested her head on my shoulder. "Why don't you go spend the Christmas break with him?"

I smiled. "I would love to but my folks wants me to go home. That could've been my first Christmas together with Nick."

"Awwwwe. You know, sometimes I just want to punch Nick in the face so he could court you already!"

I bent my head down as we walked inside the dorm together. "But I can really see that you do love my brother Savannah even after your complicated relationship. You accepted him after what you found about his past. You didn't judge him unlike those other people. I'm so happy he found you. I just wish he can see how of a great loss you are when he loses you."

"I knew he couldn't do it Trace. Even if people were telling me to be careful around him, I just couldn't stay away. I'm glad he told me about everything and how he wanted to have a dog so much when he was young but your mom won't let him."

Tracy laughs. "Right. Our mom isn't really a huge fan of dogs."

I smiled.

"When is Nick leaving?" I asked.

"Tonight with Alec."

I sigh inwardly. I just want the Christmas break to end already even though it hasn't started yet.

I look at her eagerly. "You've gotten thinner. You have got to tell me your secret."

Tracy laughs. "Oh you wouldn't want to know."

•••••

The following morning, I was done packing, I completely found myself alone inside the room. Tracy has already left with Clyde but as I look back at this room, it's where the best things in life happened to me when I got to college in just one semester. I met my instant best friend which is Tracy and I met the guy I love.

All of a sudden I hear a knock on the door and I hurriedly walked to it cos I'm sure it was Cameron now. I just hate the thought that he's here cos I'll be leaving this place now.

My eyes flared.

"Nick." I say.

He smiles. "Hi."

"But I thought you already left with Alec last night?" I asked.

"Well you begged for me to spend the holidays with you so I stayed."

My lips starting to grow wider.

"I didn't want you to feel sad the entire break and I'm sure as hell I'm going to miss you." He added.

I threw myself at him and hugged Nick as tight as I could. I feel his arms wrapping around me tighter. "Thank you." I say.

"I don't know how your brother will react to this but I promise I'll be a good boy."

I pulled myself away from him and kissed his lips briefly. "You couldn't stand me." I say.

He kissed my forehead. "Let me grab your bag for you."

Nick marched his way to my small luggage and both of us headed out of the dorm. I can already see Cameron leaning on his car while he looked at me disappointedly. I tried to tell him about the truth that Nick didn't kill someone but he's still not convinced. He hates Nick so much that his anger is blinding him.

"Are you really out of your mind Savannah? Really." Cameron greeted me.

"Good morning to you too, Ron." I say.

Cameron stares at Nick. "And you really have the guts to be with her?"

"Cameron please. You promised me you won't do anything. Please." I tell him.

He stares at me. "Fine. Get inside the car."

"No." I snapped. "I'm riding with Nick."

I grabbed Nick's hand and both of us headed to his car. Nick placed my luggage at the backseat and both of us hopped inside while I watch Cameron looking so mad at me for what I did.

"Your brother will really kill me after this." He says.

I chuckled. "Don't worry too much. He can't. And he won't."

It was a long drive and I slept the whole way through. Nick was letting me sleep and he didn't wake me up until we reaches outside my home. Nick stares at our house with amazement in his eyes.

"Wow. It's a manor house." He says.

I smiled as I walked closer to him while he was bringing his bag and my bag as well. Cameron looks over at us then walks inside the house alone.

"Let's go?" I asked him.

"You're so fucking rich. This house looks like a hotel, Savannah." He says.

"Oh don't mind it. Let's go. Come on." I tell him as I drag him towards the front door.

We passed by the maids who opened it for us and they were smiling at me while greeting me a welcome back home.

"Nick just give them our bags and they'll take care of it." I say.

They grabbed the bags from Nick and he was still looking around the house.

"He's staying inside the room right across mine okay?" I tell them.

They nod.

"No." Cameron snaps. "His room is gonna be right across mine." He said firm.

I stare at him angrily and Nick was looking at him too. The maids followed Cameron's order and went up the stairs.

"Annie!!" Ingrid screams so loud as she runs towards me.

I opened my arms to her and hugged her close while she does the same. "Oh I missed you so much!" I kiss her temple.

"I miss you too!" She says while she looks up at Nick. "Who is he?"

"He's Nick. He's my friend." I say.

"Is he staying with us?" She asked.

"Yes. Nick I want you to meet my little sister, Ingrid." I gestured.

Nick smiled. "Hi." He says so causally.

Ingrid looks at him. "I hate his hair."

I hear Cameron laughing.

"But he's handsome." She added.

"Ingrid, did Cameron pay you just to say that?" I glanced at Cameron and he looks at me as if he's shocked.

"Yeah. For ten bucks."

Cameron's eyes flared and Ingrid laughed loud. "I'm kidding. He really didn't. I really do hate his hair."

Nick is just smiling beside me.

"Oh Savannah!" Here comes mom.

"Mom!" I exclaimed and rushed towards her. She hugs me as if she haven't seen me for twenty years.

"You're choking me mom. Choking." I gagged then she kisses my forehead.

"I missed my baby girl so much. Look at you. You've grown big!" She chimes.

"Mom I was only gone for three months but I missed you too." I say.

She looks behind me. "And who is this fine looking man?" She starts walking to him and I quickly catch up.

I stand beside Nick and glued my eyes on Cameron to warn him.

"This is Nick Wilde, mom. My friend from WSU. Nick, this is mom. My mom. I mean our mom." I say.

Nick extends his hand out. "It's nice to meet you Doctor Canterbury."

He called my mom Doctor Canterbury and I seriously loved it. Mom even looks at me as if she's approved of Nick for me.

She accepts his hand. "It's nice to meet you too, Nick."

"Ah! There's my college lady." And here comes daddy.

"Dad!"

I hugged him tight and so does dad. "How are you princess?"

"I'm fine dad. I really missed you."

"Missed you too cupcake." He says while he pulls himself away from me.

"Dad, this is Nick Wilde. My--"

"Boyfriend?!" He exclaims.

I wish.

"No. Dad." I say. "He's my special friend."

"Good morning sir. It's a pleasure to meet you." Nick says so politely while he extends his hand and my dad accepted it.

"Well, me and your mom are going out for a quick gift shopping. You kids wanna go with us?" Dad offers.

"Yes! Me! I'm ready!" Ingrid exclaims.

"How about you and Nick, Savannah? Your brother is the one driving us there. You wanna come along too?" Mom asked.

"I'm tired mom. We had a long drive coming here." I say.

Dad looks at me as if I'm going to do something with Nick while they were away. We could do something but I don't know if he's game with it.

"You guys have fun. I'm sure Nick is tired too. I'll just unpack my stuff." I say.

Cameron warns me.

"Oh alright. There are foods in the kitchen if you're hungry or we'll get home late." Mom says to me.

I watch them as the head out of the front door while I was left here with Nick.

"How are you?" I asked.

"Your mom's cool but your dad is... Not."

I smiled. "He's always like that."

I walked closer to him while he holds into my hips and looks at me in the eyes.

"Thank you for coming here with me Nick." I tell him.

"Of course. Show me to my room?"

I nod.

"Too bad you're right across Cameron." I tell him as we head to the staircase.

"Is that too far from your room?" He asked.

"Totally. My room is on the other wing."

He gaped, "Then I guess I just have to jog there at night."

I just laughed at his face.

"Don't worry. We'll figure something out later." I tell him.

"How about we figure it out now inside my room?" He whispers to my ear.

I laughed. "Wow. Slow down your hormones, Nick. It's raging on a bright morning. Beg for it."

He bends his head down and chuckles on my ear before kissing my neck.

"Please mommy?" He says.

I laughed softly.

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