The Alpha King's Rejected Mate (Nyx and Lycus) novel Chapter 16

Nyx's pov.

              I sat on the bed with my hands folded across my laps, I didn't know what to do with myself and I couldn't see Amara now till she was brought by her nanny, I was told she had one.

My eyes wandered around the room, I had never been a room as big and as grand as this before. The walls were painted cream, there was a wardrobe attached my one end of the wall and I saw a door a bit far from it that I guessed it led to the bathroom. The bed on which I was sat was huge and the covers felt soft beneath my touch. There was a dressing mirror and a table on one side of the room and there was a chandelier hanging from the ceilings. Maybe to any other person the room would be plainly simple but it wasn't to me. It was grand and it was fit for a Queen, which I wasn't.

My thoughts wandered back to my mate and I was curious as I wondered if he was ever going to love me or even grant the me what I asked for.

I hope he did. Even if I was more of a loner and I didn't talk much, I had grown on Andros and I felt like I could trust him. He had been the only nice person I had met in my entire life. He even said he liked me and I blushed remembering when he said so. No one has ever told me that, no one ever likes me.

And when I had requested for Andros to be released, he seemed mad at me and he just stormed out of the room.

I stood up from the bed and walked to where the mirror was. It was strange seeing one again as I had hardly ever gotten access to one.

Starting at my reflection in the mirror, I could only think of one word.

ugly.

I was ugly and I wouldn't even want myself, that was why no one wanted me.

                My pale blonde hair was of an uneven length as Alpha Titan loved to drag it for sport and other pack members will attack it with scissors just for the fun of it.  My green eyes had gotten duller, not like they ever sparkled. My face was scarred and marked all over, the slap marks, burnt marks and even knife marks and where there were no marks, acne scars and fresh pimples covered them.

I squeezed my eyes shut not wanting to stare at my ugly face anymore, I didn't want the fact that I will never be wanted cause I was ugly to be more glaring.

I opened my eyes again and looked at my body this time. I was way too bony and skinny to be loved. The skin around my collar bones were sunken and I could see every definition of both bones. Even with the over sized gown I wore, you could tell that I was way less that a size zero.

I wasn't thick like the rest girls, I didn't have an ample bosom, I was flat chested, I didn't think my small boobs were even attractive, Alpha Titan said they weren't and so did the other warriors. Anytime I was underneath them, they always reminded me of that, another thing they reminded me of was my lack of ass fat. I was as flat as a board, I had no hips. My hip dips, dipped themselves. My bones around the area poked out. Even my torso, I could feel and count my ribs in a glance. They were extra prominent.

I wiped the tears that had already ran down my face was heading back to the bed when the door was suddenly thrown open startling me.

"Always a scared bitch!" It was the Beta. She banged the door shut and walked up to me grabbing my hair forcefully. 

I let out a loud scream but she quickly clamped her hand down on my mouth, "Scream and I will make sure I leave you dead in this room." She threatened and I shut up.